I'm so far gone now...

So  I just got back from going to  county club thingy called Cowboys with a couple girls from my work. Now, don't get me wrong...when I was with mah gurls...it was a blast!!! So much fun trying to get drunk underage ^____^ btw I'm a bit tipst right now...the only problem is...the night ended in tragedy!!! Don't think I spelled that right but whutev....anyways...I made out with the one dude who looked hott while I was really drunk...but then his friends started making fun of me...at least I think they were...so I just walked away...THEN I started dancing with this one guy in a yellow shirt and I had sooooo much fun because I told him I had no idea how to dance to that stuff but he was like "who cares!!" So we just did our own thing and had so much fun...well then he said we should all go to Denny's...so we did...well that's when I started sobering up and realized...he was a jackass..just like a lot of the guys I know...ugh...why can't I find a really sweet guy that cares for me and likes me no matter what and likes me for who I am?? I think I'm a sweet girl and I don't think I'm that ugly either!!! WHY CAN'T I FIND A GOOD GUY?!?!?!?! ughhhhhhhhhh Just a heads up to all those guys out there...if you just want in my pants DON'T FUCKIN TALK TO ME!!! FUCK YOU!!! I HAVE FEELINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGH

YAyyyyyyyyyyy I got a new phone!!! And it's freakin awesome!!! It's a motorola Rokr ^___^ Even the name sounds like me! YAyy! It's a slider too, which I'm absolutely in love with! And it has an awesome mp3 player ANNNDDDDD I figured out how to make the songs on the mp3 player into ringtones!!! WoO! I'm awesome! 8D HAhhaahaha

"You can be my bad boy, but understand that I don't need you in my life again."

Yes, that song is and has been stuck in my head for about the past week now! And I'm getting it stuck in everyone elses too! ^^ MWahahaha I'm so evil!!!

So...this is random...but I really miss my friend Shortie...:[ We use to be best friends...and I still consider him one of my best friends of ALLL TIMEEEE. He is epic. And amazing. BUt I think he's mad at me...he's been ignoring me...ugh...it's been months since I last talked to him...plus he's living in LA now...grrr....I miss him...<3

Anyways...back to cosplay!!! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooo I've found a group to cosplay with at JaCon!!!!!! WEEEEEeeeeeee so excited!!! ^___^ They're going as the group for One Piece and they said they need a girl!! I'll be playing Nami, one of the female main characters!! So happyyy!!! Plus I'll probably use my Rikku outfit again because one of the guys is going as Auron on one day and he wants me to dress as Rikku so we can take pics together! Yayy!! ^____________________^ I feel sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blahhhhhhhhhhhhh ok so I reallyreallyreallyreallyreally want to write some fanfic and draw some fan art because I haven't done that in sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long!!! ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I think I'm gonna go do that now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BYE GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alright guys...I'm definitely feeling a little more optimistic now! I'll update more on it later. I'm going to go get a new phone now!!! YAYyyyy!!!!

Ok soooooooooooo I've been feeling kind blahh lately...I think it's because Megacon ended and..although it was sooo much fun and I can't wait for JaCon and MetroCon..I'm really really sad that none of the friends I have like anime and manga and video games...None of my friends cosplay!!! Urgh...My huge wish is to have a huge group of friends that love to cosplay..so I have someone to cosplay with!!! I really want to cosplay with a group from Kingdom Hearts...ugh..AND I REALLY WANT PEOPLE TO GO TO YAOI-CON WITH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oi Oi Oi...is there anyone else out there like me???? I watch the groups of KH and Naruto and Loveless cosplayers and I get so jealous...I WANT TO BE A PART OF THAT!!!! I guess I just feel depressed because..as much fun as I know JaCon and MetroCon are gonna be..I just know I won't have as much fun as all the others who have big groups of cosplay friends that can make videos and take cool pics and all that awesome stuff...but who knows?!?! I joined a couple cosplay livejournal group thingies so maybe I'll find a group to go with?? I also joined DeviantArt so I'll be posting some stuff up on there and I joined cosplay.com and I'll be writing alot more fan fiction so...maybe I'll be able to make so new friends ^_________________________^

Ok I'm starting to feel a little bit more hopeful..but now...my "boyfriend" guy thing...is being issued into a mental instituion by his mom...oh the joys of life!!! Well..I'm going to be strong like I use to and keep a smile on my face! No matter how bad things seem to look!!! :]]

 

"It's a happy ending if I stand up tall."

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I'll be back later on after work to post more of my ramblings...yayy! ^-~
 

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	RIKKUUUUUUU YAyynesS!!!!!!!!!!!!
	Rikku+Tree=FUNNNN!!!!
	ME AND DR. ROCKSOOOOO Silly clown guy from Metalacolypse..dont get mad...I don't know how to spell it TT__TT sniff. He was freakin hillarious and so in character tho. He asked me if I would take a pic with him before I could ask him the same thing myself! Made me smile!
	ME AND VIC MIGNOGNA Wow. This man is so totally amazing!!!! Such a sweetheart, he just made me melt ^_^ And he said he had seen me walking around the convention the whole weekend and was wondering if I was gonna go say HI or not! He noticed me without me noticing!! WEEEE!! Really, he's a great guy...and smells HEAVENLY T_T He made my weekend ^______________^

Ok, I've seen a few posts from people that Megacon wasn't that great....BUT I LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had SOOOOOOOO much FUN!!!! ^_______________________^

*gigglesgigglesgigglesgiggles*
wggSo of course...I WENT AS RIKKU..duh..I don't know why I put that in caps o.O zswsswggwgwwwwwwwwwwww

Anyways...

Bwaaahhhh I feel so giddy and silly. I <3 anime/videogames///////////////YAOI/////////////////////// Weeeeeee YAYY FOR FREAKIN YAOI!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I feel so adult!!!! I bought my first YAOI dvd...teehehehehehehheehehHEHEHHEHEHEHehehehehe...that's my evil, crazzy laugh...yayy!

Sooooooooooooooo...I do believe I am permanently blind...I had about 2348938740198273 pics taken of me!!!!! THE FLASHES!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!! THey're evil!!! Dam them!!! >.< ...BUT I LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I felt like a celebrity!!! Everyone wanted my picture!!!! It made me feel soooo special and HAPPYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! Yayyyyyyyyyyyy.....alot of them were middle aged men though...I wonder what they're going to do with my picture...>.>.....ew! Hehe jkjk...kinda....MOVING ON!!!

There were a couple more Rikku's there...but everyone said I was the hottest one! 8D Yayy! Though I did see the other Rikku's and they did look mighty cute!...Plus their boots were ALOT better than mine! Hehe ^^

But anyways....EEEEKK!!!! I GOT TO MEET VIC MIGNOGNA!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO FREAKIN EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I HAD NO IDEA HE WAS GONNA BE THERE!!!! HE DOES THE VOICE FOR KOUGAIJI FROM SAIYUKI!!!!!!!!!! AND MUCH MUCH MUCH MORE!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!  Omg, he was just so very very sweet and personal! He said as I walked up that he had seen me the whole weekend and was wondering if I was going to say HI! HE NOTICED ME WITHOUT ME NOTICING!!!!!!!!!! MWAHAHAHAhahaha...heh ^^  But yea I got a pic with him and he was hugging me so tight!!! And it took his body guard woman a while to figure out my camera but the whole time he just kept hugging me and said "Let's just stay like this for a while!" Teeheehee I about died ^_^ He's so freakin awesome! I told him he was amazing and he said "No, you're amazing!" Heh...I sound like such a fangirl ^^ But he was REALLY REALLY SWEET!

Let's see...whut else...um...OH! COSPLAY! Well, I was a bit disappointed...but I guess I couldn't really expect much since it wasn't a stritcly anime/video games. There was PLENTY of Roxas and Axel! YAYY! ONe of my FAVORITE yaoi couples! And lots others from KH including Sora, Kairi(who I got a pic with! I got a pic with Roxas too!), Marluxia, Zexion (WHO I WANTED TO GLOMP WITH NO REMORSE!!! HE WAS SO DAMN SEXYYY!!! /^.^\), Blind-folded-Riku (sOOO sEXY!), and...well I can't think of anymore at the moment. There were of course millions of Naruto characters. BUt they were all so creative and I loved it! ESPECIALLY JIRIAH (SP?) HE WAS AWESOME!!! ANd I met this really hott and sweet guy named Paul who was cosplaying someone from Naruto...he was awesome ^^ I got a couple pics with him! YAyy! I was hoping to see him again but I left TT___TT sniff. 

 

BUT THE MOST AWESOMEST COSPLAY THAT THREW ME OFF GUARD SOOO MUCH AND WAS SOOO COOL.....RITSUKA AND SOUBI!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! I about CRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY! I went O.O "GASPPPPP!!!!!!" Really loud and squealed and pulled out my camera all in the blink of an eye!!! NOw...to tell the truth, Soubi was kinda....meh(NO OFFENSE!) and the Ritsuka was kinda cute...BUT IT'S JUST THE FACT THAT THEY WERE COSPLAYING YAOI!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!! GO LOVELESS!!!! SO EXCITED! IT SERIOUSLY MADE MY FREAKIN DAY!!! YIPEE!!!

Oh, my mom went with me yesterday ^^ She loved it!! She said she wants to go next year, but dress up this time!!!! YAYYY!!!


Which leads me to....YAOI-CON! (yea, I know...I'm random!) I don't know where Yaoi-con is gonna be...but I really really really really really REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wanna go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOOO BAD!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Buttttttt...who should I go as??? I bought a Keyblade!!! YAYY!!! So maybe I should go as Sora? I was thinking maybe Roxas? ^^ But..I would reallyreallyreally like to do Ritsuka...but I need a Soubi :[[[[[[[[[[[[[ I wish I had cool friends that liked anime and yaoi and stuff....ugh...I guess I'll figure something out..

Well...I think I'm gonna go watch my yaoi dvd! Yayy!! I'll probably come back to write more later!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MEGACON STARTS TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WELL....TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'LL DEFINITELY HAVE SOOOO MUCH TO POST HERE AFTERWARDS I'M POSITIVE!!!!! YAYYYYYYyyyyyyyyy <3

Well, better get to sleep, I have an early start tomorrow!! ^______^

...still...gotta...finish...costume...ughhhh....-__________________________-

 OK sooooo my other account (Bleedyourshadow) got deleted :[[[ But it was my fault...I WAS NEVER ON!!! But now I have a little more time ^^

Soooooooo anyways!!!!! I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO deathly excited about this friday....MEGACON!!!! I have never been to any type of anime/video game convention and I can't wait!!! I'm going as Rikku from FFX-2!!! Yayy ^_^

I'm sad though...I don't have any friends that like anime and manga...the one friend that would come with me is going to be in Colorado..ughhhness...but luckily another one of my friends agreed!!! WoO! :D